No pain... Just feel sleepy.. Forever... Cuz I'm nothing here... I'm a nothing going nowhere... Please kill me!

Well I look to the fucking mirror ... And what do I see? Well I see a total mess looser! I Mean, who the hell am I? This shitty girl with a messy family, who is getting older and older. I do not have any Idea of whats going to happen with this fucking life. I aint got no parents, my father is a fucking bastard who only thinks about him and his cock, my mother is getting everyday "sicker" cuz of her adictions... The rest of my family, i dont even want to think. Now, who am i right now? I'm nobody, I'm the silly blond girl who dropped college cuz she tought she could be a Star, what the fuck was I thinking? Following my dreams! Please society, laugh on disgusting ashamed face! Dreams? Who the heck believes in dreams? Why do i keep watching these disney movies? Why am i so stupid? People make fun of me all the time and I just dont get it! Fairytales do not exist! Oh gosh, I'm do sick! I really dont get it, why am i still breathing?? Waiting to embark in a ship and get away from all this but this day seems to be really far from here... But this date never comes, i cant just keep myself here waiting doing nothing! I dont know what route should i take this time.. I Mean i cant love, i cant get involved with anyone, i cant go out(cuz i dont have anymore company or money, or face to face people) , and have Been more than 2 years since I broke up...i cant get a job, my family wouldnt help me in anything cuz theyre all sick... While i keep my Smile on, just lying to every human in earth! If i could id pay for my own death!

I dont see why I'm still alive.. I suck at everything, my family hates me and I hate them... They never gave the attention i wanted, EE. Never had a Nice talk. I only had that with my host family in usa ... I'm a completaly nobody in the world. I cant fail anymore i just cant. Ive Been stupid, believe in farytales. Who does it?Ill be always the dumb dreamy girl who makes people laugh about her dreams. I dont know if Ill make it.. Its Been too hard to handle it... I just have to leave.. Leave...i just look to my family and feel hate!

Everyday seems worst than the past ones.I dont know anymore what to do if i keep living here! I dont have anymore ideas to get away from it. I dont want to hate my mother but it seems like she only cares about whatever she has to deal with. Just because she's sick she thinks EE. Should shut up and agree with the stupid things that come out of her mouth. I'm loosing all my paciency with her.seems she just want to be a teenager, and she is looking ridiculous and dumb. She never got into a mother position, but she wants to give orders! Never helps, I Mean with my studies when i was a child, never new how to hold a serious conversation without crying and feeling sorry for her and for all the stupid things she did in life. When I spent my lifetime wondering why the hell did i have to exist. My life is like shit, no perspectives no nothing. Just waiting for the day to leave this country, really wishing never see this sick family i have. I cant wait. For the day that Ill leave... And look behind and just say goodbye. Cant stand the pride, and these fools, they cant oen their monda and see the beaty in the world. The only thing they can see is their belly bottoms. I felt so sad when I saw a friend helping another without expect anything in exchange. While all the times i needed help from my family i had to give back something. Its just painfull do not even get to take your mother out to have a drink or something cuz she's not into it. Seems like your not enough to her...Feels like she can only have fun with the ones that do not make part of this familiy

Mulheres ... Mulheres... Mulheres... E eu quem sou? Mulher? Larguei do amor pra que? Pra ser mulher! Pra ser independente! Pra fazer o que sempre sonhei. Tamanha a minha esperteza larguei o amor por caprichos. Caprichos nunca realizados. Condenada pra sempre.... A um Era uma vez de um conto de fadas. Pra sempre no início da historia da gata borralheira. Pra sempre perseguir sonhos frustrados da minha utopia infantil. Condenada a eternamente olhar pro passado sem perspectiva de um futuro. Por orgulho e vaidade esqueci-me do amor o perdi...agora só resta o vazio... O amor nos braços de outra se vinga e massacra quem o deixou. Por burrice, por orgulho e vaidade, por acreditar em seus sonho infantis. É demais continuar respirando em vida sem propósito, quando o maior se foi esquecido... Da troca, da aliança, do fruto, de um lar... Quando nao lhe resta mais sentimentos alem da dor, por que motivo se manter acordado? Se eu queria tanto esses sonhos por que nao sonhar pra todo o sempre? Só assim é possível o felizes para sempre! Quem sou já nao sei mais... Mas descrevo-me como alguém solitário enganado por seus próprios sonhos e fantasias. Ass: a princesinha sem coroa

Tem mulheres que não se maqueiam...Fazem cosplay!

Alguém avisa:

beleza
o que é?
que há de belo em atrair o sexo
que há de belo em atrair o falso
que há de belo em atrair o interesse
Interesse o qual com certeza não o beneficiará
beleza atrai olhares
não sentimentos
atrai pessoas
não corações
atrai todos mas nada atrai
sua vontade não atrai
beleza não atrai beleza
beleza é um fardo
sempre se houve que o belo tem mais chances
que o belo tem mais poder
que o belo influência mais
quando na verdade o belo é o mais fraco
mais observado
portanto erra mais
mais cobrado
mais sugado
mais cercado
mais abandonado
mais deixado
mais enganado
não há nada de belo em beleza jamais
beleza condena
estereótipo
só se ouve que o belo não pensa
o belo não luta
o belo não lê
só se ouve que o belo ganha
que é presenteado
ajudado
o belo condena
não há nada de belo em beleza jamais
se há...são muito mentirosos os que por aqui rodeiam