I dont see why I'm still alive.. I suck at everything, my family hates me and I hate them... They never gave the attention i wanted, EE. Never had a Nice talk. I only had that with my host family in usa ... I'm a completaly nobody in the world. I cant fail anymore i just cant. Ive Been stupid, believe in farytales. Who does it?Ill be always the dumb dreamy girl who makes people laugh about her dreams. I dont know if Ill make it.. Its Been too hard to handle it... I just have to leave.. Leave...i just look to my family and feel hate!